ORIGINAL TEXTS

TEXT 1

Nadie, absolutamente nadie tiene derecho a dirigir tu vida, ni si quiera tus propios padres. Para crecer como persona debemos tomar nuestras propias decisiones, podemos equivocarnos pero también podemos elegir enmendar los errores cometidos.

Cada paso, cada camino que decidas tomar lleva a una dirección distinta y algunos son callejones sin salida donde tendremos que dar marcha atrás y continuar por otro camino.

Es muy importante crecer como persona, saber decir que no aunque te mueras por decir que sí, ese es uno de los grandes retos de la vida.

Nadie sabe que acción ni que decisión te hizo estar donde estás, pero eso no importa, ya no importa, lo verdaderamente importante es saber salir de ahí, tener el coraje de salir del agujero y para ello es esencial tener fuerza y voluntad.

Cualquier persona que te haga sentir inferior, culpable, mala persona y que manipule la situación a base de aprovecharse de tus sentimientos, FUERA DE TU VIDA, no te conviene.

Alargamos lo inevitable, acostumbrados a ser felices dependiendo de como acabe el día. Nos conformamos, y el problema de hoy en día es conformarse porque eso querrá decir que podríamos tener algo mejor pero no lo buscamos por comodidad, o por miedo.

No podemos quejarnos de las cosas malas que nos pasan, por lo menos no de las que nos han pasado porque no hemos puesto remedio. Pero es así de crudo, aprendemos a base de palos que nos da la vida, a base de darte de morros una y otra vez, y es que a base de darte cabezazos contra la misma pared durante mucho tiempo llega un día en que DESPIERTAS y decides que ya es hora de AVANZAR, que no mereces estar como estás y que solo tú puedes ponerle remedio.

El cambio es duro, nos cuesta adentrarnos en lo desconocido porque preferimos "lo malo conocido que lo bueno por conocer", ¿qué clase de dicho estúpido es ese? ARRIÉSGATE , descubre lo nuevo, vive tu vida y si vuelves a equivocarte comienza de nuevo.

Busca siempre lo mejor para ti, y eso no es ser egoísta, es ser LIBRE, libre de decidir lo que quieres en tu vida y hasta cuando lo quieres, libre de conocer personas nuevas cada día. Desde ser libre de viajar con tu familia y no tener que estar pendiente del móvil hasta ser libre de vestir como quieras, ponerte leggins ajustados o ponerte un escote hasta el ombligo si hace falta, en los pequeños detalles está la verdadera libertad, y esto es ser LIBRE DE DESCUBRIRTE, de encontrar tu sitio en el mundo a base de andar y de andar.

El pasado no sirve más que para aprender de él, saber los caminos equivocados que tomaste y no volverlos a coger. Mira hacia atrás y sonríe, y si no puedes sonreír entonces ni si quiera mires atrás.

Suelta los problemas que no son tuyos y la culpabilidad que tú mismo te has creado y déjalos ir, son lastres que impiden que avancemos, SUÉLTALOS Y RESPIRA LA NUEVA OPORTUNIDAD QUE TIENES DELANTE, UN FUTURO INCIERTO Y EN BLANCO, PERO UN FUTURO QUE ESCRIBES TÚ.

P.D. Que nadie te corte las alas y te impida volar alto, pues, si te dejas, nunca sabrás hasta que altura hubieras sido capaz de llegar ni las vistas tan maravillosas que puedes haberte perdido. VUELA SIN MIEDO.

TEXT 2

Soy la chica que siempre pierde, aquella que finge su sonrisa, la chica que aparenta ser fuerte pero que todos los días continua rompiéndose por dentro, la chica que esta ahi sonriente y parece no tener problemas, aquella que contiene las lágrimas hasta que has colgado el teléfono cuando digo "Tranquilo, estoy bien". Realmente estoy esperando a alguien que de verdad le importe y diga: "no, no lo estas".

Day 4

<< I am the girl who always loses, that girl who pretends to smile, who seems to be strong but who is instead broken inside. I am that type of girl who always smiles and seems not having any problem, that girl who keeps back her tears until you hung up the phone after saying you: "Don't worry, I'm fine". I am actually waiting for someone who really cares and someone who would answer me: "No, you aren't". >>

Today, while doing my homework I got distracted (as usual) and I found that text in my notes from last year.

Once again I must say that I am very happy to break up with Alex, he hurt me. I was always waiting for some day when he miraculously would change, but he only changed when he knew that I wanted to break up with him and then he used to turn back to the way he was. Two years trying to hold it up and suffering were too much. I tried to break up with him but, he was always in my mind and under my skin. I tried to forget him again and again but he always came back. I felt like I couldn't run away. My love for him ran deeply.

He was made to make it hurt. I thought he was my weakness and my downfall but now he isn't.

One day (not so long ago) I just woke up (in a figurative way, of course) and thought "had enough!" I realized that the only important thing is me. I must love myself not like a narcissistic, just like a normal girl who knows what she is worth. Would a girl who knows what she is worth hold that situation up? The answer  is obviously no, she wouldn't. Now in my mind only exist me, myself and I! So, I would replace the above text by a new one:

<< My pain has been extinguished; now I can finally breathe. I got tired of crying, from this moment I will not pretend to smile; I WILL BE smiling because I am happy. Sometimes you just have to let go of the past, if not it could hurt a beautiful future and my future is on blank, ready for new stories and adventure. For me, you will only be a page of my diary, and nothing more than that. >> 

Day 3

Today I've spent a lot of time talking with my friend Clara. She has a boyfriend but he is very controlling, constantly jealous or insulting. Clara needs freedom to do what she wants and to live her life. She wants to break up with him because she thinks she doesn't love him anymore. Nevertheless she does not want him to be hurt, wherefore, she is confused.

I wanted to help her so I've decided to read her a text which helped me when I did not know what to do with my ex Alex. I've read this text in Spanish so I will try to translate it and include it here on my virtual Diary:

Nobody, absolutely nobody has the right to run your life, not even your own parents. To grow as a person we must make our own decisions, we can make mistakes but we can also choose to amend them.

Every step, every path you decide to take, takes to a different direction and some paths are dead ends where we will have to turn back and go to other way.

It is very important to grow as a person, learn to say no even if you really want to say yes, that's one of the great challenges of life.

Nobody knows which action or decision made ​​you be in this situation, but that does not matter, it does not matter now, the important thing is to know how to get out, have the courage to get out of the hole and it is therefore essential to have strength and will.  Any person who makes you feel inferior, guilty, bad person and manipulate the situation based on your feelings, OUT OF YOUR LIFE, not good for you.  

We lengthen the inevitable, used to be happy depending on the ending of the day. We settle, and that is the problem today, because that mean that we could do better but do not look for it because of the comfort, or fear.  

We can't complain about the bad things that happen to us, at least not for those which we could remedy and we didn't.  But it's that raw, we learn the hard way of life, life gives us sulking over and over again, after kicking against the same wall for a long time, comes a day when you WAKE UP and decide that it is time to MOVE, you do not deserve to be like you are now, and only you can remedy it.

Change is hard, it costs us delve into the unknown because we prefer "a known evil is better than unknown good" what kind of stupid saying is that? Take risks, discover something new, live your life and if you ever get it wrong begin again.

Always consider what is the best for you, and that is not being selfish, that means being FREE, free to decide what you want in your life and even when you want, free to meet new people every day. Free to travel with your family and not have to keep track of the mobile, free to wear whatever you want, wear tight leggings or wear a neck to the navel if necessary, the true freedom is in the small details, and this means FREE TO  DISCOVER YOURSELF, to find your place in the world based on a long walk. 

The past is for learning from him, knowing which ways you have made wrong and to not take them back. Look back and smile, and if you cannot smile then do not even look back.

Let go of those issues that are not yours and guilt that you yourself have created and let them go, they are burdens that prevent us forward, drop them AND BREATHE THE OPPORTUNITY TO HAVE A NEW FRONT, AN UNCERTAIN FUTURE AND ON BLANK. YOU WRITE YOUR FUTURE. 

Do not let anyone cut you the wings and stop you fly high, because if you let them, you will never know until what height you had not been able to get, such wonderful views that you may have missed. FLY WITHOUT FEAR.

Day 2

My day began with my mom's "Good morning honey". Argg I fail to understand the 'good' part of 'good morning', the morning is the worst part of the day.  I definitely think that the person who invented that way to welcome the beginning of the day said that ironically and after saying this he or she probably laughed and laughed "good..goo..buahahahaha".

"Get up, now! Frank will be angry". Well done mom, that form is the appropriate.

 Another day without my dear, lovely and desired coffee. I left home late and I expected Frank to be angry, but instead of that when I came in his car I saw an ear-to-ear smile. I asked him why he was so happy and he reminded me that today was Wednesday, the day which we met to spend the afternoon and the evening together. I couldn't describe my happiness at this point. Since that moment I couldn't wipe the grin off my face. Also he put on one of my favorites songs, I love hearing a song that relates to my current situation, and that was the perfect song. I was very very motivated, therefore that I began to sing or better if I say I began to scream hahaha. "I just wanna scream and lose control, throw my hands up and let it go!" 

I am not going to specify all the boring things which I have done in class because it would be something like "bla bla bla". So, after class I went home, I got changed, I put on pretty (no, I am not in love with Frank) and we went shopping (go shopping = look for clothes that I will never be able to buy ). After a few hours looking for some cheap and cool clothes I finally found a couple of jeans. I tried them, but when I pulled on the first pair, something wasn't right. That was 38s, I couldn't believe that. Did I really gain weight? Frank asked me why I did not want to buy them and I told him that they did not suit me (of course I would not tell him the truth). Then we watched Scary Movie 5 in the cinema. Honestly, if you want to watch it just download it because paying for that is really silly. It only lasts one hour! What normal movie lasts only one hour? It is true that there were some funny moments and we laughed but it is not worth it.

After spending all the afternoon in Castellon we turned to Nules and we had dinner at his house. After a lot of talking and laughing Frank tried to give me a kiss but I did not let him. Everyone thinks that we are in love but for me it is just a friendship, he helped when I was down, when I wanted to cry I wasn't allowed because he was there with me. I did not want this friendship to be ruined.
We had a tour and then he took me home. It noticed that he was irritated but he tried to hid it and forget what happened. I am truly grateful for that. 

Day 1

Today was a nice day; I woke up a little bit tired because yesterday I stayed up late talking with my best friend Frank on Whatsaap (always the same).

 I love talking with Frank because we talk and talk without stopping; we always have a lot of things to talk about, new topics of conversation that are really interesting. He is different, not like all the other guys, not like my ex-boyfriend. My ex-boyfriend Alex was really boring and hypocritical. He used to criticize everything I did, all the things I said and all my friends. I never had things to talk about with him. He loved me but it was unbearable and exhausting, so, for that reason I just said: "out of my life", and that is how it was.

 Anyway, going back to my initial story I woke up tired and, as how I do every day, I promised me that that was the last time I stayed up late and that today I will go to bed early. Those who know me well know that it is more probably that I study several days before some test then I go to bed early (I am a disaster, I hardly ever study several days before). Then, after lying five blessed minutes on my bed I finally got up. I put my favorite pants and my old t-shirt which reminds me Avril Lavigne's style (I love her) looked on the mirror and thought: "not bad". My mom made me a cup of coffee which I really needed, but just when I started to take the first sip Frank send me a message on Whatsaap: "come out! I'm waiting". I hated him at that moment, my mood of the rest of the day depended on that coffee and breakfast. Item 1 of Ana's regulations: if Ana does not get her portion of coffee and breakfast she will be wildly unbearable and she will have murderer's instincts. That rule was broken and poor Frank, from the moment I sat in his car he regretted of having come so soon, I know.

 In class I sat next to Clara, as usual, and instead of a friendly hello she said: "you look tired" (Nice way of saying that you look like shit)"Oh..cool, it is all Frank's fault" I thought. And when I thought that I couldn't be more ill-tempered, I was wrong. "Voila!" I looked her up and down and I realized that she was really beautiful and pretty. Clara always buys new clothes, every week. "Arggg I wish I could illegally download clothes as I download music" (shhh this information is confidential, you did not read that, ok?). 

 The rest of the day was as usual as every day, except the time when I was at the gym. A few days ago I found out that the new monitor of spinning was Borja (he is so hot!). Of course I went to our spinning class, I hurried to avoid being late and, by surprise, I get first. I thought there would be many people, at first there were 3 guys but then they finished early and went out. Once alone with Borja we started talking (my heart felt it was going to burst), Borja told me he was very surprised because I was really good at spinning and after a lot of talking we had a good laugh. When I left the gym I could not refrain from making a big jump of happiness. Everything is going so well after breaking up with Alex!